I am your Disease

You know who I am, you’ve called me your friend

Wishes of misery and heartache I send

I want only to see that you’re brought to your knees

I’m the devil  inside you, I am your disease.


I’ll invade all your thoughts, I’ll take hostage your soul

I’ll become your new master, in total control

I’ll maim your emotions, I’ll run the whole game

Till your entire existence is crippled with shame


When you call me I come, sometimes in disguise

Quite often I’ll take you by total surprise

But take you I will, and just as you’ve feared

I’ll want only to hurt you, with no mercy spared


If you have your own family, I’ll see its destroyed

I’ll steal every pleasure in life you’ve enjoyed

I’ll not only hurt you, I’ll kill if I please

I’m your worst living nightmare, I am your disease


I bring self destruction, but still you can’t tell

I’ll sweep you through heaven, then drop you in hell

I’ll chase you forever, wherever you go

And then when I catch you, you won’t even know


I’ll sometimes lay silent, just waiting to strike

What’s yours becomes mine, cos I take what I like

I’ll take all you own and I won’t care who sees

I’m your constant companion… I am your disease


If you have any honour, I’ll strip it away

You’ll lose all your hope and forget how to pray

I’ll leave you in darkness, while blindly you stare

I’ll reduce you to nothing, and won’t even care


So, don’t take for granted my powers sublime

I’ll bend and I’ll break you, time after time

I’ll crumble your world with the greatest of ease

I’m that madman inside you…I am your disease


But today I’m real angry…you want to know why?

I let all in recovery, entirely slip by

How did I lose you? Where did I go wrong?

One minute I had you…then next you were gone


You just can’t dismiss all the good times we’ve shared

When you were alone…wasn’t it I who appeared?

When you sold those possessions you knew you would need

Wasn’t I the first one who stepped in and agreed


Now look at you bastards, you’re all thinking clear

You escaped with your lives when you found your way here

Only fools think they’re winners when admitting defeat

It’s what you must say when you’re claiming that seat


Go ahead and surrender, if that’s what you choose

But, I’m not giving up, cos I can’t stand to lose

So stand in your groups and support hand in hand

Better choices will save you…leaving me to be damned


Well, be damned all you people seeking treatment each week

Be damned higher power, however unique

Be damned all your sayings, be damned your clichés

Be damned every addict, who back to me strays


For I know it will happen, I’ve seen it before

Those who love misery will crawl back for more

So take comfort in knowing, I’m waiting right here

But next time around, you’d just better beware


You think that you’re stronger or smarter this time’

There isn’t a mountain or hill you can’t climb

Well if that’s what you’re thinking, you ain’t learned a thing

I’ll still knock you silly if you step back in my ring


But you say you’ve surrendered, so what can I do?

It’s so sad in a way, I had big plans for you

Creating your nightmare for me was a dream

I’m sure gonna miss you…we made quite a team


So please don’t forget me, I won’t forget you

I’ll stand by your side watching all that you do

I’m ready and waiting, so call if you please

I won’t let you forget me…I am your disease